Showing posts with label NaNo. Show all posts
Showing posts with label NaNo. Show all posts

Friday, November 20, 2020

Why I Like Camp NaNo and Dislike NaNo

So . . . this hasn't happened in a while. Seems all I post these days are Monthly HapPENings and Music Monday posts, and sometimes that gets tiring. I'm trying to write other, more interesting posts more often . . . but I've been saying that for a while, haven't I?

Anyway, this post (which might be a bit on the shorter side, and I hope that's all right) has been on my mind for a little while, and I figured now was the perfect time to share it. Disclaimer: any thoughts and opinions expressed here are my own, and you are free to think differently. This just comes from my experiences of participating in NaNo in 2018 and 2019, and the handful of times I've done Camp Nano.

In case you're not aware, let me briefly explain these events. NaNo--or rather, NaNoWriMo--is the abbreviated title for National Novel Writing Month. It takes place in November, where writers around the globe strive to add 50,000 words to their project, be it old or new, as 50k is the minimum word count for a novel. Camp NaNo operates a bit differently. Less popular and well-known than NaNo, it operates twice a year, in April and July. The biggest difference is that writers select their own goals, whether it's a word count, time limit, page count, or an editing goal. As I said, I've tried both, so these are some of my takeaways.


Why I Like Camp NaNo

1. You get to choose your own goal.

I know I've already mentioned that detail, but it's one of the biggest selling points for me personally. Everyone has different life circumstances, so being able to work around by choosing your target makes a huge difference in the overall experience. What I always preferred when doing Camp NaNo was a time goal, often 30 minutes a day. The number of words I pumped out varied, and there were some days that I didn't do as well--but at least I was still writing daily. After those 30 minutes, I could decide if I wanted to keep going, or stop there. Sometimes I would write for another 15 or 30 minutes, or even longer. Sometimes I called it quits there. The important thing was that I could keep my mental health up while still writing regularly.

2. It has a community vibe to it.

When I write, I love knowing that I have people cheering me on, encouraging me, giving me constructive feedback, and just being there for me. Camp is great for that. I shared an online cabin with a friend of mine, and we could support each other and keep ourselves positive. There's just this atmosphere of . . . understanding, maybe? Like, you chose a goal that was right for you, and you're celebrated for trying to reach it. And even if you don't hit it, it's okay. You did your best, and that's all that matters. It's like everyone is running alongside one another in a race, but some people's finish lines come sooner than others'. And there's nothing wrong with that; in fact, you're congratulated for doing what was best for you.

3. You end the month feeling good about yourself.

This probably crosses over into things I've already said, but whatever. When the month is over, and I look back on it, I feel positive about the progress I've made. I've written every day, I've made some good progress in my story, and I've managed to look after my mental health while I'm at it. Taking some time every day to be able to chill and just relax for a while is very important to me, so that's a huge bonus. I can end Camp saying it was a good experience, and if I ever feel up to it, I can challenge myself a bit more next time. Now, I don't necessarily think one even should write every single day, but it's nice to do it for a month and see the fruits of your labor afterward. Camp is just really positive overall.

Why I Dislike NaNo

1. Your goal is chosen for you.

So I understand that the appeal of NaNo is that you can actually manage to write a whole novel in a month . . . but is that really manageable? If you want to hit the goal of 50,000 words in a month, that means writing a minimum of 1,666 words per day. And if you don't hit that daily goal, suddenly each day becomes more and more daunting. Thing is, that type of goal isn't made for everyone. Some people work full-time jobs; for example, I work 8-4 at a job that can be quite mentally exhausting. Coming home to then pump out so many words can be quite challenging--oftentimes too challenging. It really does a number on your mental health. It's just not meant for every writer.

2. It has a competitive vibe to it.

Maybe it's just me, but after my first time trying NaNo, I've never felt it as a community getting together to try their best. Rather, it's felt competitive. To use the race example again, everyone is racing each other to get to that goal of the big 50k. Some people defy all logic and reach the finish line super quick, while others manage to pull in by the end of the month. But if you fail, then you suck. It just seems very . . . cutthroat to me. Both times I tried NaNo, I failed and only got 20-30k words written. And you're not congratulated for that; you're only celebrated if you succeed.

3. You end the month not feeling good about yourself.

I don't what it's like to finish NaNo, but I imagine it must feel something along the lines of, "I'm really tired, but I'm happy that I did so well, so I deserve to rest a while." The way I ended my first NaNo was, "I'm super burnt out, and I really don't want to see my story again, so I'm gonna take a break for a long while." The second NaNo may have been a bit better, but not by much. I end the month feeling kind of jealous of others and frustrated with myself and my writing. I know that's a "me" problem, though I don't think it makes my feelings illegitimate. Sure, I've made great progress in both Shattered and The Darglia Unravelings when I've participated in NaNo. Not hitting the goal, however, ends up making me feel more like a failure than anything else. In the end, I'm not convinced that any writing is worth allowing your mental health to take a beating.

So those are my thoughts on Camp NaNo vs. NaNo. I hope it doesn't bring you down or anything if you're participating this month. Again, these are just my feelings on the events. Will I ever take part in NaNo in the future? Maybe. But if I can't find a way to do it while also taking my time to refresh myself, then no, it's not something I want to do. I'd rather do Camp once or twice a year. It's more my style.

I suppose I'll end on saying this: if you've miraculously finished NaNo already, you are a hecking genius and I wish you all the best as you finish off the month! And if you're not done yet, I'm cheering you on from the sidelines. You've got this! But don't neglect your mental health in the process. I know I've talked a lot about it in this post, but seriously, it's important. The job I currently work has taught me to value it and look after it well, because no one else can or will do it for you.

That's that! What're your thoughts on my reasons? Do you prefer Camp or NaNo? If you're trying for 50k this month, how far along are you?

Friday, December 20, 2019

NaNo 2019 Recap + Snippets

So you may or may not know that last month was this little thing called NaNoWriMo (commonly shortened to NaNo)--National Novel Writing Month. You might also know, or perhaps not, that I participated in said event. "How'd it go?" you might be asking. I'm hoping you did, because if you didn't, I might as well end the post right here.

NaNo was pretty good for me this year! I decided to be a rebel this time around and not aim for 50k. Let's be honest, that goal is a little crazy for us who are working full-time and trying to maintain social lives and also look after our mental health. Instead, because I hadn't really done much writing since Realm Makers in July, I decided to simply do at least 30 minutes a day. That way, I was making a habit of writing on a regular basis.

It ended up working out better for me than the lofty goal of 50,000 words last year. In 2018, I ended up feeling burnt out and very tired by the end of NaNo. That wasn't the case this time around. Being able to work at my own pace was a much-needed change from last year, and it was the reason why I enjoyed Camp NaNo in April and July so much more than regular ol' NaNo.

So what was my final word count? Just under 17k, which obviously isn't a lot. But every little bit counts--at least, that's what I try to tell myself. Just like last year, it was a little difficult to not play the comparison game when you see or hear people hitting 50k, 100k, or even 150k. That's one thing I really don't care for about NaNo. I know seeing other people hit these crazy awesome goals is supposed to be awesome and build a community spirit and should make you really happy for other people . . . but it's far too easy to become disappointed with your own work if you're not doing nearly as good. And I dunno if it makes it worse when people who have reached the "proper" goal tell that it's okay and everyone has different lives/writing paces?

On a more positive note, I had my best day of writing this year. On Sunday, November 17th, I ended up writing for about four hours (which I don't think I've ever done before), and my final word count for the day was 3,777 words. I've been recording my writing progress since the beginning of 2016, and my former best writing day was Thursday, December 28th of 2017, when I wrote 3,044 words. Finding that out made me so ecstatic! I was thrilled to discover that I'd beaten my personal writing record.

Unlike last year, I did not attend any NaNo write-ins at the library, nor did I attempt to go out to a cafe or some other such place to work on my story. I just felt too busy this November; I didn't have time to leave my house for writing-related purposes. Besides, my best writing tends to happen in my bedroom anyway.

Now I bet you're wondering what I wrote in November. If you're on Facebook, you would've seen my post talking about this very subject. If you didn't see it, I'll quickly explain now. I (initially) had planned to work on two projects: Shattered and the expansion of my Havok submission, From the Mind of the Dead. As it turned out, I became quite passionate about the latter story, so I focused on that all month.

When From the Mind of the Dead was published on Havok, I had a number of people telling me that they wished it was longer. I realized that expanding the flash fiction into a novel was a bad idea, because it would very quickly lose the tension and suspense the original version had. Whereas the flash fiction was a very tight piece of writing, a novelized version would become much looser.

That's when I had an idea: what if I were to write an anthology of novellas instead? The first story would be the expanded, though not lengthy, Havok submission. In it, Blake Lawrence is accused of murdering his girlfriend. He is brought to the Judgment Dome, the only courthouse in New Darglia City, where justice has become nothing more than a televised game show. Upon having his name cleared, Blake vows to help those who are wrongly accused and ensure that truth is sought out in the midst of the glitz and glamour. The rest of the stories would be about him becoming a detective, solving crimes with his partner, Niko, and facing off against a mysterious masked prosecutor in court.

I really love the ideas I have for this collection, which I'm calling The Darglia Unravelings. I was kind of obsessed with it last month, as it was often the subject of my thoughts. If you're interested, I'll share several snippets with you from what I wrote in November.

. . . Well, even if you're not interested, you're still getting them.

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I haven’t killed anyone, I swear.

But everyone else thinks otherwise. It becomes abundantly clear the instant I step into the Judgment Dome. Boos and catcalls are flung left and right, “Blake” being tossed around as if my name is a vulgarity. People are already using the computers at their seats to make bets. It doesn’t take a detective to figure out that they’re betting I’m guilty.

The bailiff nudges me forward, and I head for the center of the amphitheater. My surroundings blur together in a mess of loud noises and unfamiliar sights. I know enough about legal proceedings to get by better than the average person, but to actually be down here, on trial? That’s another story entirely.

I arrive at the heart of the dome, known as the Arena of Justice. In the waist-high fence, there’s a gate with a card reader next to it. The bailiff uses his card to let us into the Arena, and the gate seals behind us. I am brought to the defendant stand, which is next to the judge’s extravagant bench on his right side. The stand is angled so that I can not only get a good view of the whole circle, but so that I also don’t have to strain my neck to look at the judge.

Standing here, staring at the massive crowd, I have two thoughts. The first is, These handcuffs are going to become really uncomfortable by the time this is over. The second?

I did not murder my girlfriend.



I got up and was led to one of the rooms in the visitation wing. Another guard waited there with the person who had wanted to chat with me. I didn’t recognize him. He had to have been more twig than man; I wondered how he hadn’t been blown away by a strong gust of wind yet. His skin was sickly pale, even in the room’s vibrant lighting. From his hair color and hairline, I could tell that he had to be in his forties.

He smiled, though something seemed off about it. “Blake Lawrence?”

I simply nodded.

“I’m Patrick Higgins, a lawyer at Freeman Law Offices.” We shook hands. I would’ve been better off shaking a dead fish. “Please, have a seat.” He gestured toward the table and chairs.

I plopped down on mine while he gently lowered himself onto his, as though he was afraid his tailbone would shatter if he didn’t stick the landing. I decided to talk straight. “So you paid for the defense attorney ticket?”

He winced. “Not exactly.”

For a moment, I could do nothing but stare at him. “You mean the ticket agents came to you?”

“They did, yes.”

“What did they charge you?”

Now he squirmed in his chair. “They, uh . . . they just gave it to me. For free.”

I leaned back, the world around me muffled and cold. I had no words. Lawyers sometimes got discounts for tickets when no one was willing to pay the full price for them, due to the nature of the case. For free, though? Why hadn’t they come over and slapped me in the face while they were at it?




Alistair straightens his tie, even though it was already perfectly straight. “I call Detective Roscoe to the stand to give us the details of the murder.”

From the plaintiff lobby entrance walks the detective with one of the Dome’s many security guards. The bailiff opens the gate for them and takes Roscoe to the witness stand, directly across from McGrath.
“Your name and occupation, please,” Alistair says.
“Sir!” The man salutes, an unnecessary action, I think. Must’ve been engrained in him to respond to orders like that. “I am Detective Jacob Roscoe, sir! I work with the CSI in the New Darglia Police Department, and I specialize in murders such as this one.”
“Thank you, Detective. Can you please fill us in on what you’ve discovered?”
“That I can, sir!”
I wince. Who left his voice in permanent shout mode? What is he, an anime character?



This is going south faster than the coffee I drank this morning. At this rate, I’m going to remain behind bars for the rest of my life. Will anyone remember me? Anyone who actually cares, anyway? I doubt it. It’s obvious that my siblings and extended family haven’t thought about me. The few friends I have will move on. I’ll forever be an outcast.

The scariest part to me is the crowd itself. They represent the whole of New Darglia, gobbling up these trials as the best form of entertainment. To them, it’s all a game. Nothing is real. What happens in the Arena doesn’t affect anyone else. Even many of the judges, defense attorneys, and prosecutors are just a new breed of ditzy celebrities who don’t fully understand the ramifications of the Dome. How have we all become so calloused and uncaring?

I rub the back of my head, thankful that my hands are cuffed in front of me this time. That’s when an idea springs out of nowhere. It’s a desperate move, but I’m in dire circumstances. Besides, the people like some crazy twists and turns in their entertainment. I almost sneer at them all. You want drama? Then drama is what you’ll get.

“—no reason to carry on,” McGrath is saying. “I suppose I shall give my verdict.” He reaches for the button to freeze the bids and donations cycling through.

“Wait, Your Honor!” I cry.

Thousands of pairs of eyes flick over to me. Patrick seems unsure of what to do, and Alistair’s smug grin is looking a little less victorious. McGrath retracts his hand. “Yes, Mr. Lawrence? What is it that you would like to say?”

It’s now or never. “Your Honor . . .” I straighten my stance and say as boldly as I can, “I call upon Lillian’s memory bank as proof of my innocence!”



The door to the defendant lobby swings open, and Alistair strides inside. I can’t help but wonder, if we were the only two people in the room, would he exact personal vengeance for supposedly murdering his daughter?

“Blake,” Alistair growls, “you are a fool. What do you hope to gain from this cheeky maneuver? Are you trying to embarrass my daughter by exposing her private life to the world?”

“Embarrassment is the furthest thing from my mind, Alistair.” I sit up a little taller, wishing that I could stand right about now. At the moment, the prosecutor is looking down on me, but if I were on my feet, my height would turn that around. However, the guards would probably interpret that as threatening, so I let Alistair have the small win here.

“Then what is it you’re after?”

That’s easy. “The truth.”

He scowls, ruining the perfect vestige of control that he normally wears on his face. “The truth is that you choked my precious daughter to death.”

“When you met me, what did you see?” I ask. “A guy who would cherish Lillian with everything in him, or a guy who would, without any apparent reason, decide to snuff out her life?”

Alistair is quiet for a moment. Then: “People hide many dark secrets, Blake. You are not the first, and you are certainly not the last.” He hesitates, though for what, I’m not sure. He whirls around and marches out, not saying another word.



And there [Lillian and I] sat in silence. I drank in the moment, gazing into her eyes. I didn’t know what I did to deserve her, or how I got so lucky, but I was eternally grateful. Deep inside, I just felt like she was a piece of my life that I couldn’t afford to lose, either. She meant the world to me. What better way to show her than to propose?

My free hand reached for my pocket when a ringtone broke through our reverie. Lillian winced and grabbed her phone from her purse. “Sorry, I should’ve—” She froze. “I have to take this.” She answered the call with, “Hello?”

Something crossed over her face. Never before had I seen someone look so . . . horrified. And if I looked closer, I could spot a hint of terror creeping into her expression like a parasite. Eventually, she said, “Okay,” and hung up.

I furrowed my brow. “What’s the matter?”

“One of my key sources for my secret article . . . he’s dead. Someone snapped his neck.” She gathered her stuff together. “I need to go. I am so very sorry, Blake. I’ll try to make it up to you.” With that, she dashed out of the restaurant.

I sat there, stunned and unable to move. It was only when the waiter brought me the bill that I robotically stood, paid for the meal, and left. The ring mocked me from within my pocket. As I got into my car and headed home, Lillian’s words became an all-consuming thought:

I can’t lose you.



Freedom isn’t supposed to feel this empty. It does, though, and it’s because I played in a game show in order to prove that I was actually innocent. To the viewers, what does it matter either way? It’s not them on the defendant stand, so it’s nothing on their conscience. What a shame it is. You deserved better, Lillian.

“Stay safe and pursue the truth.”

That’s what she’d wanted me to do. That’s what she still wants me to do. If no one else is going to care about the truth, I will. I pull out the e-credit card, my prize for winning. Not thinking twice, I snap it in half. I would not take their money. As far as I am concerned, it’s the symbol of low the justice system has stooped.

I get into my car and start the drive home. Going after truth with such a passionate determination would continue to ensure that I’m an outcast. I don’t care. I’m beyond caring about that. This is about more people than just me.

As I navigate the busy streets, I say what will no doubt change my life forever:

“Lillian, I swear on your grave that no one else will suffer the same fate as you and me.”



I think that's all I will share for now, since I don't want to spoil everything from the first story. What'd you think of the snippets? If you participated in NaNo, how'd it go? Did you accomplish what you set out to do?

Friday, December 14, 2018

NaNo Snippets

One of the best things about NaNo is being able to share your story with others. In fact, I love giving snippets for my tales even when it's not NaNo! (Though that was probably obvious.) Because it would've clogged up last week's Monthly HapPENings post, I didn't bother adding any excerpts. But today, I've decided to give you all a glimpse into what the new and improved Portal Chronicles is like. Hopefully it'll be better than the original.

Enough wasting time! Let us dive in!

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“Watch out!”

A hand grabbed Mark by the shoulder and yanked him. Shocked out of his raging thoughts, he stumbled a few steps back, nearly tripping over the curb. A black semi-truck roared past, mere feet from where he stood.

He turned to face his rescuer. “Thanks for the save.”

Warren frowned at him. “Yeah, that was a little too close for comfort. It wouldn’t kill ya to pay a little more attention. Probably would do the opposite.”



Head fuzzy, Mark traversed the well-lit corridors to the business classroom, where he sat down next to Grace.

She looked up from her textbook and grimaced. “Did death pull you out of bed and nuke you before you came to school?”

“Feels that way,” Mark groaned. He rubbed his forehead in an attempt to ease the swelling headache.



David reclined on one of the benches, but perked up when he spotted Mark. “How’d it go?”

“Hard to tell. I’ll be getting my grade at some point today.” Mark attempted to shield himself from the nippy air. The wind from Lake Ontario had a frosty bite today, that was for sure. “Warren’s almost done?”

“He should be.”

“Speak of the devil, and he shall appear,” Warren said. He smirked at them. “Ready to go?”

“You bet.” The sooner Mark got off the schoolyard, the happier he’d be.



“I did pretty well, all things considered.”

“Hmm.” Father sniffed, his disdain evident in the tightening crevices on his face. “All things considered. What you did not consider are my expectations for your grades.” He leaned forward. “I thought we had agreed that you had to get an A-, at the very least. Ideally, you’d be getting A+, but that seems to be too high a request.”

“It’s not like I didn’t studying. I did a lot of that. In fact, I did everything I could to—”

“Except you didn’t.” Father’s tone dropped a few decibels. “Because if you had, you wouldn’t be coming home with a B+ and claiming that you ‘did pretty well.’ How do you expect to get anywhere in life without knowing the business world inside and out?”



Quinton leaned over to Daniel. “This is a waste of time,” he hissed. “Ours and theirs. You better apologize to the foreman for pulling him away from his work unnecessarily.”

Daniel brushed him off. The second worker stood there, arms folded. He almost appeared to want to say something, but he instead chose to keep his mouth shut.

A minute later, the one who’d done the talking returned with his boss. Daniel almost took a step back. The foreman had an aura about him that reeked of power and demanded obedience. He stood over six feet tall, built like a hero of old. Every step was taken in confidence. His dark eyes bored into Daniel, holding him captive in his gaze.

The oddest part was the faint hissing seemed to occur when he walked. Must be their equipment nearby.

The bearded foreman held out his hand. “I’m Jarek,” he said. Daniel had expected his voice to be a booming baritone, yet even though it wasn’t, it commanded respect. “I heard you’re with the Witch Hunters. To be honest, I’ve never heard of the agency before.”

“We like to keep to ourselves.” Daniel shook hands. Jarek’s grip was firm and steady, which seemed to fit. “I’m Agent Daniel, and this here is my partner, Agent Quinton.”

“Unwilling partner, I might add,” Quinton put in.



“And now it’s time for the morning news,” the radio DJ said. He proceeded to list a bunch of things that Mark tuned out. Anything business-related received no brain space, thanks to the callous actions his parents took against him.

Then the DJ said, “Police report two men died last night due to a tree falling on their car. The incident occurred on the Lonely Trail, close to the main drag. The accident was made known to authorities by Hoffman and Sons, who are currently demolishing Fort Charles. The company foreman on site, Jarek Depere, said he had sent out a couple of his workers to get supplies from Lakeshore. The men found the wreckage and immediately called the police. As of right now, the victims’ names are not being released. More details to follow. For a lighter topic, here’s your upcoming weather forecast.”

David shut off the radio. “Okay, now that’s weird. Like, freaky weird.”

“But it’s just a coincidence . . . right?” Mark glanced between his two friends. “There’s no way that the convoy that nearly ran me over is somehow related to these guys being crushed by a tree.”



Morrot stamped on the brakes and swore. “Powers above, I hate these rush hours. How is anyone expected to travel anywhere when they’re stopping every other foot?”

Jarek chuckled to himself. “And these civilizations pride themselves on efficiency.”

A hush descended up the car’s interior, broken by more cursing from Morrot as he hollered at other drivers. “I’m using this lane, you qarn! Get your own.” He laid on the horn for at least three seconds. “And put your finger down while you’re at it!”

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Both Mark and Warren followed suit. Out of nowhere, dizziness suckerpunched Mark in the gut. He crashed into a table and knocked his head on the way down.

Warren slid to his side. “Frick, frick, frick. David, I need your help.”

In an instant, David joined them. The shouts of the gunmen reached their ears. “Okay, new plan.” David pointed at the kitchen. “We hide there until they’ve passed.”

“There’s a reason the staff fled into the halls instead of staying in the kitchen,” Warren said, even as he lifted Mark from underneath his armpits. “Grab his legs, will ya?”

David obeyed, and the two of them carried Mark to their destination. Shivers coursed through his body, almost making him convulse. The strange paradox was that he felt like he was being roasted from the inside out. I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die, I’m gonna die.



In one corner stood a small crib, beautifully carved from a mahogany wood. He hadn’t noticed it in his rush and assumption that he’d taken down everyone. Tiny hands poked through the bars, reaching for him. He put the gun away and walked closer.

The crib’s occupant, a toddler, stopped crying upon the sight of him. She cooed and pulled at her curly black locks. Can’t be much older than two years of age. He lifted her out of the crib, and she stared at him with magnificent sapphire eyes.

“Hello, dear child. You look well-rested.”

She uttered not a sound. For some odd reason, he was reminded of all he’d left behind in Kythe. Days long past filtered into focus, and his gut churned with the agony of waiting to see his mish’ner again. “You bring back memories to me,” he said in hushed tones. “Ones of a pleasant manner and of an unwelcome nature. Thank you. I needed the reminder.”

She poked at his mask and giggled. He laid her back down in the crib. “You must not see the carnage out there, but what’s done is done. I have altered the path you tread, and for that, I am sorry. Yet we must all come to terms with the simple fact that fate is a cruel and fickle mistress. The sooner we learn that lesson, the better.” He chuckled. “Even you, a tender child, are at her whims. Let my actions build up your character. In the end, it will benefit you.” As he switched off the light, he added, “Farewell, precious girl. When you’ve grown, do better than I ever did.”



Step by step, minute by minute, the light shone brighter and brighter until flashlights were no longer needed. Then they arrived at a clearing and ducked low to the ground. The town sprawled before them, beckoning them into its presence. It was a haggard thing, fighting against time’s restraints but showing signs of weakness. How wonderful it must’ve looked back in the day: a haven in the middle of the Orion Forest.

In the distance, he could hear machines rumbling and snarling at one another. Shouts from workers mingled in with the chaos. Two beefy men sat on the barricades that blocked vehicles from using the highway, which ran right through town as the main drag. Floodlights stationed all over the place provided more than enough visibility for the company, but possibly too much for any proper sneaking around.

“How’re we planning on getting into the town?” he asked.



Fort Charles’s square was an utter mess. Trees once beautifully pruned had been allowed to mutate into whatever they desired. Flowerbeds ran thick with weeds, although several wildflowers still sprouted here and there. The cobblestone pathway was almost invisible underneath the long grass and caked mud. Had it not been raining, the fountain would’ve been bone dry. Mark skittered through the square like a grave robber: he knew what he was doing, and he also knew the consequences, but he was still doing it anyway.

The murderer jogged up the crumbling stairs leading to the town hall and tugged on one of the doors. The hinges screeched so loudly, Mark winced from where he was several yards back. He caught the man starting to shift and crouched behind the fountain. His friends grabbed their own hiding spots, and the trio remained still. Does he know he’s being tailed? The uncertainty injected his anxiety with fresh energy. His hands dug into the rough path so hard it seemed they might begin bleeding.

Ever-so-cautiously, David peered out from behind the statue of a gallant lord he was hiding behind. “He’s not there anymore. I think we’re good.”

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“What is it?” Cronus asked.

“I’m not alone here. I’ll contact you again soon.” Jarek gestured in an odd manner, and the hologram vanished, the light whisking into his chest. Then he whirled. “I know you’re in here. Show yourself.”

Power resonated in his voice, compelling Mark to come out of hiding. The chill spread throughout his entire body, and sweat dampened his forehead. Warren snatched a loose board and readied himself. From the looks of things, he was going to attempt the same maneuver he’d used on the school shooter, although perhaps with even more force this time around. David waved in a motion that implied Warren shouldn’t go through with the plan.

Jarek walked toward the doors, mere feet away from Warren. “You are aware that you must pay for your actions, yes? Death will suffice, of that I’m confident. You can be assured that—”

Warren leapt into action and swung the board upward. It connected with Jarek’s jaw solidly, but it shattered instead of its target. Jarek didn’t even flinch. “That was foolish.” He snatched Warren by the shirt. In turn, Warren jabbed him in the eye, and he let go to cover it while crying out in pain.

“Run!” David yelled.



The assault rifle trembled in Mark’s grip. He couldn’t tear his eyes from the death machine. Shooting had been so instinctive. What would his parents have said if they’d seen what he had just done? “You’re a monster,” Father would have fumed. “Look at what has become of you hanging around that dock worker’s boy. You are no longer welcome in this home ever again.”

“Maybe,” Mother added, “everyone would’ve been better off you had let yourself get shot.”

That’s all he was: a disgrace that deserved no better than death. In his moment of weakness, despite his efforts to shrug off their words because they didn’t matter to him, his shame increased tenfold. He had failed his family, his friend, and his God. The panic attack shifted into overdrive and ignited a bout of hyperventilation.



Rugott threw open a door at the bottom and stepped aside to let them pass. Then he closed it and typed furiously into a keypad mounted on the wall. It took Mark a second to realize that the tech didn’t match up with the town’s outdated appearance. He checked out the rest of the room, brightly lit and filled with various monitors showcasing info he didn’t understand, along with other unrecognizable pieces of equipment. But it was the wall opposite him that freaked him out.

Four compact machines, two on the floor and two on the ceiling, formed a square shape on the wall. In between those devices was a fluctuating mass of . . . energy? Water? Light? All three? It almost seemed like someone had taken a sliver of outer space, painted it a blend of cyan and silver, and implanted it here. It released a low purring that was almost too quiet for the human ear.

“What the heck is that?” he whispered.

He jumped at the sound of metal striking the ground. A thick steel plate had dropped in front of the door, effectively blocking anyone else from entering. The lights dimmed and gave the room an unsettling ambience.

“I put this place in lockdown,” Rugott said. “It enables a power-saving mode, like a laptop, so that the portal stays connected.”

“A portal?” Warren asked, both bewildered and incredulous.

David pinched the bridge of his nose. “I’m starting to think we’re way in over our heads.”



Mark had never experienced any sensation quite like entering the portal. It first identified itself as being dunked in a pool of bitter cold water. Then somehow he wasn’t in the water and was instead the very water itself. He sloshed through a slide of all purple and black hues imaginable. Comets of flaring orange and shimmering green blazed past him in every direction. Time was a lost concept here. It held no power and refused to indicate how long he’d spent traversing this trippy tunnel.

Something crunched and snapped in the general location of his feet. He glanced downward and gasped—or at least, he tried to. The water that was his feet was freezing over, and the ice crawled up his body. The panic drummed away at his brain. What’s happening am I gonna die am I already dead where are Mark and David I disappointed everyone I’ll be forgotten God save me I can’t go on—

He stiffened, his entire being constructed out of thick ice. Faster and faster he slid. All the colors around him became one mass of torture for his eyes. He closed them in an effort to shut it all out, but it seeped through and scalded his mind. If his lips weren’t stuck together, he would have screamed.

It had been a lie. Everything Rugott said was to lure them into the galactic death trap. Did he have his own motives and agenda? There was no way of knowing, and Mark suspected he never would find out. All he could do was hope and pray while battling against the cruel, gnarled hand that gripped his heart.

Light and energy exploded through his core, and the ice entrapping him shattered into millions of tiny chips. The corridor’s fabric ripped in front of him, and he fell. Solid ground was right beneath him, so it was more like he sat down hard than anything else.

He lay on his back and stared up at the sky for a moment. Stars winked back at him, and the atmosphere remained still, save for crickets chirping. Wait a minute . . . it’s nighttime here. As if we never left. And where is here, anyway?



“Y’know,” Mark piped up, “if I didn’t know that we’re in some place called Kythe, I would’ve sworn we’d teleported to another country on Earth.”

“That’s what I thought too,” Warren said. “You would think that this place would be really weird or something.”

“In what way?” David asked.

“Oh, the usual stuff you find in fantasy books: dragons, Chosen Ones, prophecies, and other stereotypical elements.”

“But that’d make it boring, not weird,” Mark said.

Warren huffed. “Okay, try this on for size. People who willingly eat plants that shoot fire become immune to said element.”

“Uh, I feel like they’d die before they would be fireproof.” David chuckled and added, “Not to rain on your parade or anything.”

“Yeah, I feel like you two are definitely bursting my creative bubble. Now I’m not gonna talk about all the other stuff I had in mind for this world, like talking crocodile-octopus things and disturbing acts of violence and the ability to pick up a random weapon and become instantly good at it.”

“That’d be the worst story ever,” Mark said.

David nodded. “Yeah, everyone would make fun of it because of how ridiculous it is.”

“Wow. Thanks for the support, fellas.” Warren stomped ahead.

Mark couldn’t help but laugh, and David echoed his merriment. Warren turned around, grinning, and laughed along with them. The banter helped ease Mark’s knotted stomach and cut his anxious tension. He pushed the thought of home out of his mind for the time being so he could concentrate on the here and now.

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Something skittered past in his peripheral. He twisted in that direction and scanned for any signs of danger. Nothing presented itself in the light, but that did nothing to ease his churning gut.

Warren tensed up as well. “I think someone might be following us.”

“Or something.” Mark shivered.

The instant they moved forward, a sound—light footfalls?—arose for a brief moment from behind them. If he hadn’t been paying attention, he might have missed it entirely. “There it is again.”

“Show yourself!” David hollered.

From between two braziers emerged an emaciated figure. It was as if someone had dunked the thing in a vat of eggplant-colored paint. But that’s not what freaked Mark out.

The creature had no face.

It took rolling steps toward them, evidently adept at stealth. He retreated as the monster advanced. “I think we should run.”

The middle of its face split, revealing a vertical mouth of pointed fangs. Mark almost passed out on the spot. “Go, go, go!” David yelled.



Things weren’t much better at the base of the Grand Tower. Knights were ushering civilians inside while holding off the swarm of flesh-eaters. The road glistened with blood, torn bodies discarded like so many cheap toys. The screams of the innocents, the commands of the men in charge, and the shrill roars of the enemy faded from Mark’s awareness. All he saw were the dead.

So many dead.

He gazed at the faces of the people rushing in. How many of them had families like Warren’s? Had they been chewed up in their own homes? On the path to safety? Would anyone ever be whole again?

The brave fighters did their best to stave off their foes, and they seemed to be succeeding. But they needed a boost soon, or they would surely fall among the KIA count. Swords broke skin, arrows pierced vitals, and shields bashed against heads. But still the beasts rushed at them from all sides.

Mark spotted a broadsword coated in a thick goop, and he lifted it off the ground. It was heavier than it would’ve appeared in a movie; nevertheless, he hefted it as best as he could and marched toward the creatures.

“Mark!” Warren pulled him back by the shoulder, like he had when Mark was about to be flattened by a zooming semi. “What the actual heck are you doing? We got lucky with the one back there, but there’s no way we’re gonna be able to take out more.”

“I cannot—I refuse—to keep letting people die for my well-being.” Mark shook off his friend’s hand and walked toward the horde.



“Ah, you’re finally awake.”

Mark whirled at the unfamiliar voice. A lanky fellow towered over him. If the wind had eroded a stone into the shape of a human and breathed life into it, this man would be the result. Salt and pepper curls stuck out from beneath his cavalier hat, which was fashioned out of a black fur that Mark didn’t recognize. He wore a simple white shirt, sleeves rolled up, and loose-fitting black pants.

“Terribly sorry. Didn’t mean to startle you.” The man extended his hand. “Sea Captain Smits, at your service.”

Mark accepted the proffered handshake. “Mark Harrison. Uh . . . how did I get here, by chance?”

“Oh, you fainted after the battle with the suvorens. The commander of Valheart’s outpost ordered us to bring you and your friends before our governing body for questioning.”



Well, that's all I'm sharing for now! Sorry that the post got so long; there was a whole bunch of stuff I didn't even include. I hope you enjoyed taking a look at what Shattered is like. Let me know if you've posted snippets from your NaNo project on your blog!

Friday, December 07, 2018

Monthly HapPENings: November + NaNo Recap

Hey! Hiya! You guys remember me? I know, I've been gone for pretty much a whole month, so I may not be very recognizable. But here we are, at the beginning of the end. Before we really get into the whole post, I just want to say that I'm only going to be briefly touching on the Monthly HapPENings aspect and focus more on NaNo and writing. Let's breeze through what the month was like!


Life was pretty normal, all things considered. I worked, and when I wasn't working, I was writing. I attended my work Christmas banquet with Tracey, and that was a lot of fun. But really, besides that . . . I didn't much on the life side of things. Just lots of writing.

Bookish HapPENings


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I finally finished another book! While it wasn't my favorite Klavan book, or even my favorite series of his, it was still great. And it felt good to read over half of it in one day, something I haven't done since . . . I dunno, my summer vacation? But anyway, I enjoyed it. I would've liked a longer denouement, as it felt a little rushed. I also think that first-person is more of Klavan's forte than third-person is. All-in-all, it was probably four out of five stars for me.

HapPENings on the Screen

I think my youngest two sisters and I watched shows once, maybe twice, this last month. It was our usual line-up: Flash, Ninjago, and Avatar. (I'm too lazy right now to bother putting up all those pictures.) To be honest, I don't even remember where we ended off with those, so I don't have much to say about them. I also want to get back into watching Trollhunters, because I've only seen one episode so far, and it was supposed to be my alternative show to watch until I can see S4 of The Flash. I'll have to sit down and watch another episode this week.

Gaming HapPENings

Honestly, I didn't do a whole lot of gaming in November. Trust me, I wanted to, as a way for me to relax and refresh myself, but NaNo refused to give me that time most days. Or I wasted that time on my phone. *awkward cough*

I did do a bit on my laptop closer to the end of the month. Chloe watched me play some games, such as Euro Truck Simulator. I'm so bad at that game, not only because you have to drive on the left side of the road, but also because I was horrible at backing up and staying in my lane and whatnot. I even tipped the whole semi a couple of times.

I also played with Preston, one of my Kiwi friends. We hadn't done that together in so long. It was great to reconnect and laugh our heads off about the stupidest stuff. We played Terraria and Worms W.M.D. together, which is always a blast. I hope we can do it again soon.

Writerly HapPENings/NaNoWriMo Recap

So a lot--and I do mean a LOT--of last month was spent writing. When I was at home, and I wasn't eating, sleeping, or getting distracted by my cell, I was writing. But allow me to start from the beginning.

A few days before November began, I Tweeted that I was entering NaNo this year. Boy, did that Tweet blow up, for whatever reason becoming my most liked post. So many people were encouraging me and being all like, "Yeah, you can do it!" It was pretty crazy.


With a bit of nervousness, I entered November 1st, anticipating the craziness that people often spoke of. Having not have written terribly much since my novella last December, I was a bit rusty at first. It took me a few hours to write 1.1k, but I enjoyed it. In fact, the more I wrote, the more I wondered why I had waited so long to get back into it.

Now, I know some people probably have crazy stories of all the things that they did and accomplished in the month of November. I am not one of those people. Things were pretty routine from one day to the next. I worked full-time from 8am-4pm every weekday, and went home with every intention of writing as soon as possible. Often, my phone--especially Twitter--would distract me until after supper, when I would put on my writing shoes. The first . . . I dunno, week or two involved many a late night. I would stay up past midnight because I was so focused on writing and lost track of time.

Weekends were a bit different. When I wrote on those days varied, and they tended to be my most productive days of the week. Which is understandable, because my job is more mentally exerting than anything else.

But as the days went by, I became more and more tired. I wasn't taking the time for proper self-care. Work and writing occupied my life, and I felt as though I had no time for relaxing activities. (And yes, playing on my phone is not refreshing to me.) The burnout was definitely showing in the last ten days of writing, as I didn't even hit 1k most of those days.

That's why, in the end, I did not reach the mighty goal of 50k. Instead, I wrote 31,246 words--an accomplishment that has felt measly at times. On my Twitter timeline, I saw people proclaiming how much they'd written, and here I was barely managing to write even a couple hundred words some days. Truth be told, it was very hard at times. I felt like I was a failure and not good enough. I had to eventually realize that as long as I was writing, and as long as I reached my personal goal--going back to a daily writing habit--then I had won.

Another thing I had to realize is that I did so much better than I did for my last major project, Digital Pulse. I started that novella on July 25th and took until December 29th to finish writing and editing 20k, whereas I had now written 31k in the span of thirty days. A big improvement, I'd say.

Two other notable things that I did in November were the two days I went to the library to participate in their NaNo events. It was nice to get a change of scenery, though I didn't really talk to/connect with any of the other writers there. On the second time I went, I also visited a nearby café for a lunch and an hour-long writing session. Unfortunately, I chose a booth with a table that was far too high to comfortably write at, and I felt it would be awkward to, as soon as I sat there, get up and move to a different spot. So I stayed there and added only a small amount to my word count for the day.

So in the end, what did I learn from NaNo? That I love writing and have no idea why I continually abandon it for long periods of time, that I want to develop my own plan for how I can write daily, and that Shattered, the first book in the revamped Portal Chronicles, is turning out swimmingly thus far. In case you're curious, my new plan is going to be to set aside an hour or two each weekday to write. Once that time is up, I stop and do something that relaxes me, something that benefits me and my mental health. Weekends can be longer sessions, since I'm not working those days. I also found that going in 30-minute word sprints helped, which is probably what I'll do.

However, I'm still feeling weird burnout sensations. I say weird because I want to keep writing my story, but I've had absolutely no motivation to write this blog post. Also, as of the time I'm writing this (Wednesday the 5th), I have not fully slept through the night for the past week and a half, which is abnormal for me and is affecting my energy levels. (If you think of it, keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I try to find out what's wrong.)

Well, I don't think I really have anything to add . . . All in all, I'd say that I would definitely participate in NaNo again, though with more reasonable expectations depending on my life's circumstances. I'm looking forward to doing more writing this month and seeing how my characters' journey progresses. There've been some unexpected turns, so seeing the rest of this book and the other two titles in the trilogy play out will be loads of fun.


That was my November! What was yours like? Did you participate in NaNo? If so, please share all the details, or link to your blog post/social media post where you have talked about it! And if you have any questions about Shattered or my experience this last month, feel free to ask.